Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Where have I been? An explanation

Charleston trip with friends -- definitely a 2015 highlight
Hi there! I’ve got ‘splaining to do, don’t I? If you are a long-time follower of this blog, I am sorry to have let the posts wane. I didn’t post very much in 2015 because it was a challenging year for me. It was an unexpectedly important and defining year in my life because I had to make some hard but important decisions, and there were very few feelings and experiences I wanted to commit to long-term memory. The past year has been a big transition year for me, and I myself did not know what life would be like just three or even one month ahead.

I’ve written regularly for the past 6 or so years, but very few of my pieces are ever finished and fewer still are ever published on this blog. I write when I’m full of feeling, attempting to capture a memory, or to help myself think through all-consuming issues. I don't often finish any particular entry because I don’t always have a distinct beginning or conclusion – which makes sense because if I’m writing for myself I don’t need to provide expository content, and oftentimes I don’t have a conclusion because I haven’t figured everything out yet. And then, of course, is the question: How much of this do I really want to remember or revisit if it is so emotionally taxing to live through in the moment?

I survived 2015 and I am proud of the way I composed myself, but I would never want to relive it. I have come a long way but have a quite a ways to travel still.

Will you follow along with me?

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